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09.01.03 - 8:59 p.m. Okay ya'll this is me venting: D's. ol college girlfriend, present friend, is staying with us until Thursday. I realize I probably shouldn't be jealous, but to be honest at this point I can't help it. They have so many inside jokes, they get along really really well, they love to go through old photographs and talk about old times and try to include me into the conversation...even though it is painfully obvious that I am not. "Jenna always forgot to grab a napkin at food service, but I always had them ready for her." "Yeah, he always took care of me..." Tonight they were supposed to cook supper for me and they had a 'big surprise' in store for me...which I have figured out. They are going to take me to the music building at the University and play a two handed piano piece. Now, in my opinion this not a surprise for me. I tend to view two handed pieces played by old lovers a form of musical foreplay and I don't really want to watch it and think "surpise." Okay, the funny thing is right now they are watching sex and the city on DVD and on the show good ol Jessica Parker is iniviting an old boyfriend over while her current boyfriend is in the house...they both commented on how wrong that is and how rude is was...Hello? Is this not the current situation...why does the sex of the person matter? That is my bitch, right now. That is the problem I tend to run into with my boyfriends...they want me to think it is cool when I have problems making friends with their currrent best friend who used to be their girlfriend. If it was their old boyfriend than they can undersatand it...what is the difference? They were initmate...shared ideas of the future...and probably fucked. Sexuality is grey folks...relationships are relationships. Am I crazy? I mean they laughed about a time when she passed out in the snow and he threatened to hit in her the head with his dick if she didn't get up and walk home. She didn't believe him, and so he slapped his dick against her face...I am sorry but I didn't think that was hilarious...but I laughed and pretended like it was no big deal. He has no clue and that is what drives me the most crazy. Three more days of this...fuck.
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