01.27.05 - 12:34 a.m.

Just a short entry to chime in and say, "I'm alive." Though not sure if this chiming is for the 3 people who actually read (skim?) this, or if it's a reminder to me.

I start a part-time (extremely part-time) job, working for the Pulmonary Research Department at the University. It's a gopher job I got through a temp agency, and will probably only score me about 100 dollars a week. So, in a months time I will be able to pay my rent. That's it. My rent will be paid.

I've realized I have relatively little self-worth. I mistakingly believed this was from lack of work, but I think it's more a lack of purpose. At this point I highly doubt if I will have any children, so the live to breed aspect of life is pretty much out the window. Since I live in a house which is a "no-pet" home (tell that to my cat, hedgehog, rat, and fish) I will probably not be the crazy guy with 25 cats. Purpose...hmmm if only Wal-Mart sold those.

I'm becoming more and more let down by the American collective conciousness. So much ignorance in this country (world.) I received a forward from my mother (Oh, Mom when will you learn forwards are not a subsitute for a real email.) the forward I think really sums up the ignorance of people. Here it is:

"Muslim Mystery

Everyone seems to be wondering why Muslim terrorists are so quick to commit suicide. Let's see now...

No Jesus,
No Christmas.
No television,
No cheerleaders,
No baseball,
No football,
No hockey,
No golf,
No tailgateparties,
No Wal-Mart,
No Home Depot,
No BBQ,
No hot dogs,
No burgers
No chocolate chip cookies,
No shellfish, or even frozen fishsticks,
No gumbo,
No jambalaya,
No Beer,
No Victoria's Secret...
>
Rags for clothes and towels for hats.
>Constant wailing from the guy next-door because he's sick and there are no doctors.
Constant wailing from the guy in the tower.
More than one wife.
You can't shave.
Your wives can't shave.
You can't shower to wash off the smell of donkey cooked over burning camel dung.
The women have to wear baggy dresses and veils at all times.
Your bride is picked by someone else. She smells just like your donkey.
But your donkey has a better disposition.
Then they tell you that when you die it all gets better!
I mean, really, is there a mystery here?"

If this mindset wasn't a catalyst for hate it would truly be hilarious. I've received serveral forwards with long email histories on them with very similar themes. This thought that Christians, or Americans, or :insert label: are any better than any other sort of lifestlye is just ridiculous. I'm very uncomfortable with this "Greatest Country on Earth" scenario. It's frightening.

One other thing I'm uncomfortable with:

Company founder Howard Weyers has said the anti-smoking rule was designed to shield the firm from high health care costs. "I don't want to pay for the results of smoking," he said.

The rule led one employee to quit before the policy was adopted. Four others were fired when they balked at the smoking test.

Okay, I'm aware smoking causes lots of money in health premiums...but come on...companies can fire employees for smoking on their own time? Why not fire the fat people, too. Being fat does lead to awful things like heart attacks and don't forget about Diabetes. Is Howard going to start targetting the fatty's too? I could see making these employees pay more for their insurance...but firing them? What the hell is happening to our "Free-est country on Earth?" Corporations and their "Team-speak" are a pain in my ass, and their control of our government is like a huge, inflamed hemeroid on my already pained ass.

Well, that's enough ranting for now. It's late...time to try to sleep again.

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